Life and Love (again) [Believe...]
by PChan on Nov.02, 2009, under Life
I would like to introduce to you my bestfriends. Skyy and Jameson. These to friends I can pretty much say whatever I want to them and not feel a shred of negative judgement or hatred. While I’m not complete intoxicated I would like to take this time and write. Thank you for listening to me… I know that not everyoen is as lucky as I am when it comes to people who will listen. I check my google stats often and I’m always surprised to find that they’re are a lot of people who want to listen to what I have to say. I’m not sure why sometimes though.
I can write a million words but all of them are only hear say. I can honestly admit that I’m not sure what life and love is all about. What is the point really right? I can write with a ton of really big words to describe the feeling but all of it is irrelevant because each and every individual experiences this in their own way. All I can say is don’t be afraid… because life is all about overcoming those fears. Love is about overcoming that fear.
It’s not like you all haven’t noticed that I’m afraid of the unknown. You could be afraid of what could’ve been or what is reality. Truth of the matter is you shouldn’t be. Life will always throw you curve balls and it is up to you to compensate. I can’t be the one to preach these words because I am always full of doubt and fear. That’s where you should learn from me because those emotions will get you nowhere. As they say, life is what you make of it and if you live life thinking about possibilities you aren’t truly living.
I think I know what I am doing all the time when in reality I’m about as clueless as the majority. In fact I’m as cliche as the next person. I seek attention and glory but I will always me missing that piece of the puzzle. At least for the time being. Don’t waste your life away thinking about possibilities, go after what you want… if you fail then fine, go after something else. Don’t let that fear get to you.
I seek love and hopefully I will find it but my fear of actually finding that love is what holds me back. I can be as assertive as the next person but love is still somewhat of a mystery to me. “I LOVE YOU”, “I LOVE YOU”, “I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART”. Describe those words to me please. I feel like I don’t know it’s true meaning. Fuck me if I ever find out but I just want to hear those words said to me again. No more false feelings; emotions that mean something.
That’s enough… before the drink takes it’s toll, I love anyone who’s willing to read what I write. Take a chance and don’t let it scare you.
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November 2nd, 2009 on 9:09 am
i hate people like you. always complaining about something even though you have everything. you’re not overweight, you’re not bad looking, you seem to have talent and you still complain.
why don’t you get a life instead of writing about how jaded the world is or how sad you are. some of us are not as lucky as you.
why don’t you take your own advice and actually live and stop bitching. i would say nobody cares but apparently a lot of people do so i won’t shoot myself in the foot.
i would trade places with you anyday you fucking dick.
November 2nd, 2009 on 10:25 am
If you hate me so much, why did you bother reading? I do know I have a few things going for me but like everyone else in this world I do struggle coming to grips with reality sometimes.
Don’t get me wrong I’m glad you took the time to read what I had to say but this blog is about me. I can choose to not write my feelings but I don’t want to do that. This blog is my voice and if people take time to read and relate that means my voice has been heard.
I want people to read my blog and realize it’s okay to feel insecure or unsure. It’s also okay not to hold back emotions. I want people to realize that we are all humans.
I’m sorry you don’t like what I had say but I can’t simply change the way I am. I will take away one thing from your comment… I really am lucky to be the way I am.
November 2nd, 2009 on 9:49 pm
Man I’m jealous of your haters…I wish I had haters
November 3rd, 2009 on 12:29 am
@Stop Complaining (aka idiot) – seriously? you’re criticizing someone else’s writing on their blog? you pretty much proved pchan’s points about being human. one of your traits is your insecurity, “you fucking dick”.
November 3rd, 2009 on 6:09 pm
I agree with the hater…shut the f up bone head. And take the gay hat off already
November 3rd, 2009 on 6:09 pm
@calvinirwin thanks man.
November 3rd, 2009 on 6:10 pm
man…some people are really harsh.
November 4th, 2009 on 1:35 am
Lotta peepz drinkin’ the Haterade.
November 4th, 2009 on 1:37 am
god… you have to love how dumb people are.